Saturday, December 27, 2014

doa buat kekasih

Aha!

Tak sempat New Year dah ada new entry ya? Hihi.

Ada masa lapang sikit today. I was watching this lovely drama on Maya HD. Cute! Hihi. Starring Zul Ariffin and Siti Saleha. I think they made a perfect couple. Such a lovely and pretty fellow these two! Indah sungguhlah ciptaan Allah manusia berdua ni!

Well. And this song was the sound track of the movie.

Love. Major love.


Dedicated to you, Sayang, Mommy, Bobby and Ninie!

I love you guys the most, regardless what!

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

the end

Hi everyone? How you guys doing?

I'm good, Cuma biasalah, busy a bit. Hahaha, Alasan yang paling selalu tak?

But it's true. Dah nak hujung tahun ni banyak betul benda listed in the schedule. Not to mentioned kenduri kahwin here and there, and some projects going on as well.

Last week my mom was here for few days, With nenek. One of my little cousin getting married last weekend. Not so little anymore, besar dah dia! Bila one by one family members kahwin, terasa sangat how time flies! But lepas ni maybe ada break lama sikit la before next one, sebab yang tinggal semua still study and kecil lagi.

Anyway, so bila my mom's here so banyaklah agenda nya. Bawa dia ke sana ke mari, which is me and husband don't mind at all. One thing, I suka betul kalau orang datang rumah, sebab I macam suka ramai-ramai and meriah. Now that she's back to hometown, so rumah rasa sunyi je. She will only come again in January for Afiq's wedding and oh maybe my little sister will be back for semester break also! Can't wait!

I tengah-tengah browse FB and look what I've found!


It was our very first roster! My fellow batchgirl in MH uploaded it! Hihi. Kalau ingat balik time dapat roster ni, rasa nervous gila!

Actually that was our SNY flight, maksudnya macam practical flight before we truly certified and graduated as Cabin Crew. Before that ada juga pergi 2 observation flights. Observation flights tu senang je, we just observe. But as for SNY flight ni, we must operate as a crew and were given position as well. And yes people, I kena served Business Class during this flight. Mine were bound for Bangkok (BKK).

Alhamdulillah, we all made it for SNY. Semua graduated on time. Honestly, this job isn't easy at all. Tak mudah, seriously. You need to be aware and prepare all the time. There's not a chance for you to slip a bit, because if there's an emergency, you are so responsible for all your passengers. So, be nice to your Cabin Crew/Flight Attendant.

Kalau nak reminisce balik all memories in MH, memang banyak. Well, I shall make a special entry for that later, okay?

Oh. We have come to an end for 2014. So how's your resolutions so far? Banyak yang achieved ke? If yes, that's good for you. If not pun tak apa, we can always bring it forward, don't we? Like we always did. Hahaha.

The husband said he has few open tickets left for this year, asking me where do I wanna go? Seriously I tak tahu. Kejap kang macam nak pergi sini, kejap nanti I change my mind to somewhere else. Told him to just decide, I am okay will all. Sebab AA routes mana je pun nak pergi kan?

So I wish all of you Happy 2015 in advance! In case my next post will be somewhere next year! And, Merry Christmas beautiful people with beautiful soul!

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Goodbye

Last we met was few weeks ago. Masa my little brother's wedding reception dekat Muar.

Dia macam biasa, hadir walaupun sedikit lewat. Ada majlis di KL katanya. Berbaju hijau muda, bersulam nama sendiri di pocket baju. He's wearing the same design last week with different color. Hihi.

He came and duduk di meja sambil makan. Dia panggil my husband duduk sekali. I know he likes my husband. Because he hardly panggil mana-mana anak buah duduk semeja and offer cigarettes. My husband politely declined. That was because our Paklong and Maklong pun ada duduk sekali. Kami ( Tok Taza and his wife, anak-anak dia, Paklong, Maklong, Me and Husband) bersembang banyak cerita. It was very entertaining tengok dia gurau-gurau dengan isteri dia, and dia bercerita things about him that we don't know and unsure before. It's like getting-to-know-more-session for us.

A week before during reception di KL, I appointed his baju and said;

" Woah Tok! Cantiknya baju, siap ada nama!"

And he said,

" Ala, ni outdated punya collection. My new one coming soon "

And he giggled.

Yes.

Thru enough.

His new collection ialah kain kapan yang beliau pakai on his very last day. It was last week, Thursday Dec 4th, 2014. A day before, nenek call and bilang Tok Taza masuk ICU, sakit jantung and stroke.

I was shocked. My mom was shocked. Everyone was shocked.

 Sebab rasa macam baru sangat jumpa dia, and he was all healthy and cheerful. What can I tell you, he is one handsome and kind man. Ini betul handsome, bukan sebab he's my datuk saudara. Bukan. He's tall, kulit putih kemerah-merah and very charismatic. And I like him. Much. Very much. Kalau masa I kecil, rumah dia di Melaka yang I very looking forward nak pergi.

Because he gave lots of duit raya and makan rumah dia sedap.

My mom pun kalut nak pergi melawat dan jumpa pakcik dia.

So we decided untuk melawat dia di Putra Medica Specialist, Melaka on the next day. Honestly, I tak rasa apa pun masa nak pergi melawat dia. I mean, by the time kami arrive I hope dia akan sedar dari coma. So that we can chat with him, make him smile and have a good time in Melaka. Yes. I siap plan nak bawa my mom makan asam pedas Hajjah Mona dan coconut shake afterwards.

Bila kami sampai, still tak boleh masuk. He was in CCU. After a while, doctor panggil immediate family members. So I nampak Nek Nomi (his wife) bergegas masuk. Tak lama lepas tu, semua orang masuk and I thought;

" Oh, Tok dah sedar agaknya "

And bila sampai kat katil dia, I nampak Nek Nomi terduduk sambil nangis and tunjuk ke arah Tok Taza. Anak-anak dia, my Nenek ( Arwah's Kakak) and my mom datang dekat katil and nangis. I nampak monitor tepi katil but I don't know how to read. I nampak Tok Taza terbaring atas katil dengan bantuan oxygen.

I sedih. I sedih tengok dia macam tu. I sedih tengok everyone nangis. I cried a bit, I cried because I rasa suasana tu sedih and I sedih Tok Taza tak sedar dari coma lagi. My husband came and hugged me. But silly me, I thought semua orang sedih sebab he still coma. Until I nampak the monitor went blank.

And then I terdengar anak dia cakap dengan the nurse yang mereka nak bawa balik Tok cepat.

So I asked my husband;

" Tok dah tak ada ke? "

" Iya b, b baru perasan ke? "

I tak tahu nak describe apa yang I rasa. Tapi I rasa such a big lost. What came in my mind was;

Raya and any event after this won't be the same because he no longer around.


Alhamdulillah, urusan pengebumian Arwah berjalan dengan sangat lancar. Ramai orang datang and pay him very last respect. I know Arwah memang sangat dikenali ramai dan ada ramai kenalan dan family yang sayangkan beliau.

I'm happy that we decided to visit him, I'm happy that we spent whole day in Melaka dan bersama beliau dalam perjalanan akhir beliau. I'm happy that dia sempat datang to my wedding and having him around dalam event-event penting dalam hidup I was such a bless.

Alfatihah, Tok Taza.

Insyaallah, we'll meet again someday.


Allahyarham Tuan Haji Mustadza bin Abu Bakar
26 Jan 1955 - 4th Dec 2014

Innalillah.